"Why do you love her soo much? Why do you care about her soo much? All she has ever done for you was lie to you, cheat on you, use you, make you depressed, and crush your heart. She is cruel and she is an unmoral person. No good moral person on earth would even ever come close to do what she did to you. It is impossible for somebody to be soo cruel to the person that loves him or her soo much. She is nothing but trouble for you, she crushed your heart, toyed with you for 3 years, and completely destroyed you and your way of life. She doesn't care about you at all, she only care's about herself, she is selfish, and she's nothing more then a slut now. Think about how many guys she's been with since you?, how many guys has she made out with? how easy and fast was it for her to sleep with that guy? I bet you can not even think of one single female friend you have that has made out with more guys then her. Fuck her, you deserve soo much better, you deserve somebody that will love you back, care about you, be honest, be faithfull.
She does not deserve your love, care, or friendship. It's her fucking loss. Please move on, and just get her out of your life, all she's doing is continue to destroy you... You deserve sooo much more.... You are a good moral man.....you don't deserve this shit..."
After long period of silence, I finally replied....
"You are right.... I do deserve better..."
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I just can't believe it came to the point where C had to tell me all this....
I didn't even think she knew about my situation with her...
Atleast C cares about me....
C is right, it's pointless to try to continue to keep something that was never really there.....
I do regret ever becoming close with her, all the pain and suffering was not worth the two good years we had....
But I'm not going to lie, I'l miss her dearly, and I'l probably still always think about her everyday from time to time, wonder how she's doing, how her life is, wonder if she's gotten prettier or just hope she is happy...
I'l miss our weird fights, miss hugging her, touching her, cuddling with her, putting up with her outrageous crap, her one sided wrestling matches, her making retarded funny jokes and comments when she doesn't even mean too be funny, and I'l miss her unique personality that gives her this unique cute sense of quirkiness that i love about her.
She will always be special to me, the one that got away....
I hope she'l be happy in life, and i do wish her the best, I hope she can learn from her mistakes, learn from what she's done to me in the past and let that help change her and become a good person again...
I hope one day, she'l realizes and appreciates the love i have for her...
I love her with all my heart, always have and always will...
You are beautiful and you are unique...
I just wished we could have done something special together one last time...
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