Failure...

I've become a failure in life...

I fail at everything or everything fails me...

When it comes to people, it's always the people that i care about most that fails me...
It saddens me and it hurts a lot when you've put soo much effort, soo much time, soo much care and love for the person, but too only have that person stab you in the back...

Duffily crushed my heart....til this day I don't understand why things had to happen the way it did, I guess things were too good to be true, but it was cruel and unfair how I had to suffer the past 3 years...she actually had me fooled and I actually thought she did care or love me back....

And now I fear I lost JB as well...even after all I've done for her, sigh..., it's the principal, we shouldn't be friends if you are not going to stand up for me or appreciate my help...It does hurt, and saddens me, cause i thought we were tight....i thought we were like brothers and sisters....

My mom has been stressing me out like hell, to the point where I don't care anymore...

Why should i care anymore, why should i care about anybody or anything?....I either fail or they fails me....

Hurts the most when its the people I care about soo much that fails me...

I just want a hug, I have nobody to talk too anymore, Jmack is always busy now with UBC stuff, I'm too embarrassed to tell C my problems, Hung already has too much of his problems, Duffily pushed me out of her life, and JB isn't even being a friend...

Nov. 4th, I hope I don't fail that day, If I pass, then I'll get to leave Vancouver, and possibly forever. I hope I pass, I'm done with the people here, I want to go away and start a new life....a life where i don't have to hate myself...

I hope I don't fail this one last task....


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